HI all.
This summer is sure flying by it seems!
This summer has really been busy, and so I find myself not reading the Word consistently, not praying as much as I should, and sadly, not being the person I want to be.
Naturally, (as most of you probably know!) I'm not a genuinely kind person. For the past year, that's what I've been striving to be. I always look at my mom and pray that if I can be half of the person she is, and I come short of even that.
It's so easy to be kind to those who are kind to us, to those that are our friends.
What's hard is being good to those who use you, who are mean to you, who don't desire good for you.
What's amazing about my mom is that it's so easy for her to look past these flaws in people, and just continue to do good to them, to love them, and be their friend.
For me, it's the opposite. I have to pray sooo much to like I said-be half the person my mom is. Just as importantly, I have to read God's Word. When I read it, it becomes so easy to love.
Lately I haven't been asking God for strength in this area of my life, I haven't been meditating on verses from the Bible regarding all of this.
And it shows. At least to me. I never realized how MUCH reading the Bible affects me as a person, my character and my attitude. I don't know if because prior to summer I read so much of the Bible and God was really changing my heart and attitude towards people, things of this life, etc. more than ever before in my life.Then, this past month I went back to simply reading the Bible when I had a few "extra" minutes in the day. I pray short prayers. I've never asked God to help me to love people prior to this year, but when I did, it became so easy. Now I see my old nature rise in me, and it kills me. I don't want to be the person I used to be.
I want to be like Christ. I want to be kind, to do good, not looking for anything in return, to love others, to pray for others more than I pray for myself. I don't want to live a selfish life.
I think that is one of my greatest desires-to have a servant's heart. To serve others, regardless of who they are. Loving people like Jesus loved us is the beginning of being a servant, because when you love people, you want to serve them, regardless of how the've treated you.
Blessings,
Lesya
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AMEN! Lesya, that was the most beautiful entry you've ever written. Through it, Jesus touched my own heart. What a beautiful desire it is to have a servant's heart. The fact that your heart longs for renewal, and your heart cries over falling short is simply evidence of a changed heart. You're never going to be perfect, but Jesus uses the ordinary! Be encouraged of that! There is no good Christian. Jesus already used you in my life and while it's so easy to become discouraged when we look at our flaws, we should instead take weakness as an opportunity to seek Him! Seek strength in Him! Which is exactly what you're doing. Your burden and longing for truth is inspirational, and He will hear it. I'm praying for you Lesya.
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