Keeping Busy

Hi all. 

I mentioned a few posts ago that I love figuring "things" out about myself. Usually I find out these "things" by reflecting on how I responded in certain situations or by reflecting on how others responded/act, and then think about how I would respond if it had been me. 

Anyway, one day, driving home from school I started wishing I had some free time. Free time is a very general term. I guess I reflected on how I never had a time of relaxation/fun. I could have had it, had I not graduated early. It's all about choices. (Looking back though, I am sooo glad I did-I would just be starting the program, had I not graduated early. No thank you-so glad with where I am today). Ok, so that sounds contradictory because I was wishing for some free time, yet I am glad I never got that free time. 

Well, it hit me then. I just can't not be doing something. When I had those days off over winter break, and even during the summer, and I relaxed I went to bed feeling so unaccomplished and I cannot stand that feeling. On days that I am busy, and get a lot done, I go to sleep satisfied, and feeling accomplished for the day. 

Of course, for everyone busy means something different. I don't know, I understand that compared to some people, I am not be so busy-it's all a matter of perspective. 

Then I realized why God always works things out in my life the way the He does. He knows me too well and He wants me to be happy, and busyness is what works for me. In addition, when I am busy I am also reading the Word more and focusing on God because I think ahead. When you know you don't have much time to do something you plan. On days when there is less to do, I think, oh I'll read the Bible later, I have plenty of time and it doesn't always work out that way!

I know this sounds so silly because sometimes I think is it is all in my head that I think I'm busy?  I don't know...I also think busyness it a way of life. I enjoy it because I feel accomplished at the end of the day and so it works for me. I don't think people need to sit back and relax necessarily especially if you are busy with what you love to do. 

Hmm...next time I think I will post about things I love to keep busy with-those are also the ways I relax. Relaxing does not have to be sitting and doing nothing :)

Oh how much I will enjoy these posts when I get older...lol

Blessings,

Lesya