Thoughts...

Hi Friends! 

Well the semester is over. I thought I would have this overwhelming thrill and sense of satisfaction once I submitted my paper...but I didn't. Well I am relieved.  With Jesus taking a mom from our church home, to be with Him, has just impacted me so much. Before I begin my ranting on and on let me say that I know my crying, thinking, and sleepless nights don't help in any way or change the situation but that's just how it is for me (my grieving process). Supposedly I am not sensitive because no I do not cry if I watch a sad movie or see something sad that has not happened in real life, but oh how sensitive I am when real life sadness hits our church. Then I realize I am so sensitive.

Tuesday night I went to the funeral and cried all church service...I was getting so sick of myself because I could not control my tears. I thought I'd be able to stay strong when I hugged the boys but I wasn't.  I'm still crying and can't eat, like I have this "burden." I can't imagine what its like for the family but they (we) have the Holy Spirit our comforter and for that thank you Lord! Of course, their Mom right now is in such a happy place that we can not even imagine what it is like!

Anyway, studying for exams was hard, and taking them was hard when all that was on my mind was this family.

I am thankful that its been so difficult for me to "move on" because I am in constant prayer for the boys and their father. I will never understand why God took away a mom from such great boys but His will is perfect! 

Like my brother Victor said "A mom is the best thing in the world." 

 But if in this world our time with our parents are short, how great is it knowing that one day all families will be reunited in Heaven.